The older I get, the more I try to not talk about sins that I am not particularly prone to commit. I try to not talk about gluttony, pornography, gambling, or drunkenness. I feel compassion for those who struggle with those sins, but I try not to talk about them because I realize those who struggle with these sins are already aware of it and do not need my help to identify the sin. They know they are guilty of these sins, the struggles of life are to accept Christ’s grace and to avoid the sins in their daily life.
I can talk about one sin, the sin of fear. I have many fears. I fear financial disaster, I fear illness, I fear cancer, and I fear career lost. Most of all, I fear loss of relationships. My fear of loss of relationships has led to a cycle of insecurities and lack of trust.
Today’s lectionary reading in Mark 4:35-41 talks about the fear of the disciples. The storm was raging, and the disciples were afraid. They cried out “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” (NIV). Jesus replied by commanding the wind and waves to be still. He then replied “What are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” (NIV). Just like the disciples, my sin is the sin of fear.
I am afraid, and my faith is weak. Thankfully, Christ still calms the storm and restores hope in spite of my weakness.